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Dear Blogger,

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Damn .Im crying a while a ago.. its because of him.

This is the first time that I did it for a friend.

I dont understand whats happening between us two. I just cant understand the way he's acting. Something's really odd. Something is not right. Something is happening here and I just cant explain it to myself.

I know things changes so fast in this world we are livin and so do people. This friendship started so fine and nothing simpler could ever define it. It was all okay.. I am happy being with him through out the seconds, minutes, and hours, and days that we've been together..
UNTIL

 I just cant explain how fast things has changed for the both of us. Suddenly, he started to act insane. It's like he's playing dumb with me. I cant understand what he means when he talks at me. On the way he tells me something about his life or even what he did the other day. On the way he speak to me when nobody's around. On the way he treat me.. It's like something is different.

I admit it. I do like him more than just  simple person I have ever known right now. But he is my bestfrend and I am his bestfriend. Well that's the case. I feel guilty if ever I do like him actually and nore than a bestfriend can do/ :/

I hate it!
This cant be happening to me. To us.

'coz I am scared/
I know he is scared too..

Scared,

that this might destroy everything we had at first. Scared at knowing him more than just an ordinary friend.

 I am scared because I'm scared of being rejected, being ignored, and getting hurt once again.

I am scared of trying all over again yet in the end... I will end up empty and broken.

I am scared to tell him the truth.

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This is Elle..
Signing out.


PS. REALITY IS NOTHING BUT AN ILLUSION.


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