Ruined, Shattered, and Destroyed

 I's funny to think that it just takes a day to turn this beautiful daydream into a dark nightmare.

"People come and go". Sabi nga nila..

And I do believe in that famous line.

I never knew how things between us turned out to be such a great tragedy.

All I know is that I have done what every girl who's in love should do.

Hindi ko nmn kasalanan na mahalin ko sya ng higit pa sa isang kaibigan.

OU. Nung una.. talagang pinilit kong pigilin ang nararamdaman ko.

Ginawa kong kalimutan nalng at balewalain kung ano mang nararamdaman ko sa kanya.

pero,

Hindi talaga e. :( Nagustuhan ko lng sya lalo. at habang tumatagal, dun na nagsimulang mahulog ang loob ko sa BESTFRIEND ko.

As time goes by, I've felt much more comfortable being with him. I've felt so much happiness when I'm around him. I've felt care and adoration through him.

Alam kong alam niya na gusto ko sya. Kasi ramdam din nya.

PERO, may nagyare din namin inaasahng sisira sa pagkakaibigan namin.

Ou, inaamin ko. may kasalanan din ako. pero di ko namn ginusto na sa ganitong paraan magtataposa ng nasimulan namin:/

alam kong wala ng magagawa ang Sorry. pero stil, I am in deed deeply SORRY :(

inamin na din namn sya saken kahapon na MAHAL NYA AKO.
Mahal nya din ako.. matagl din nyang itinago yun.

Masaya ako nung narinig  mismo ng mga tenga ko ang salitangiyon na galing sa kanyang mga bibig. :")

PERO, bakit ngayon lang nya sinabi ????

Bakit ngayon.. kung kelang nasaktan na ako?!  Nasaktan sa mga nalaman ko. Sa lihim na itinago nya saken?

BAKIT BESTFRIEND.

ito ang linyang pilit na di maalis alis sa isiapan ko. :"(

Talagang di ako makapaniwala sa nangyare saming dalawa.
Ang pinapangarap kong HAPPY EVER AFTER kasama sya.. ay bigalaan nalang napawi ng LUNGKOT, GALIT at PANGHIHINAYANG.

Sinira nya ang TIWALANG ibingay ko sa kanya. :(

Pero, totoo namang MINAHAL KO SYA !
:(

pero, Siguro nga ..hanggang dito na lang kame.
Ayoko nang masaktan ng sobra e.

Sinaktan na nya din ako. :(

NagSOSORRY sya saken. Ramdam ko na nahihirapan din sya.

Na ndi rin nya ginusto ang nangyare samin. Sinabi pa nga nya na AKO lang ang babaeng nkapgpaiyak sa lalakeng katulad nya. :/

Damn. Kinig ko namn na uhugin na sya e. mangiyak ngiyak na talaga e. Kahit kelan talaga.. muka parin syang SNATCHER. -_-

HAHAHA

(wow. nkatawa pa talaga ako ah? )

SAYANG TALAGA.

ang PAGKAKATAON,

ang LAHAT LAHAT,

Sabi din ng mga kaibigan namin.. TANGA DW SYA SA GINWA NYANG YUN.

Ako na din ang nagsasabi.. TANGA talaga sya! :/

at ang masakit pa dun.. SOBRANG NAAPEKTUHAN ANG PAGKAKAIBIGAN NAMIN.

Wala e.

Siguro ganto talaga ang buhay.

"Something's really not meant to happen"

Kahit masakit isipin .. tanggap ko.

Lesson's learned.

still, I do not regret anything that has happened to us.

:)

This is Elle,

Signing out like a wind..

Kaba in English.. NERVOUS!

NOW PLAYING: KABA

Urrrggggh!

I don't what just happened after that moment. I think he really did saw my post and in the other hand.. read it. **Flushy red**

All he said was.." SABEEEEEH!???? #DRAMA"

<----and this meme kinda suits that scene. -.-

HAHAHA. he still thinks I'm playing dumb with him. (just because HE COULDN'T UNDERSTAND WHAT AM I SAYING IN THAT POST.. NOSEBLEED MUCH DAW KASE:3)

WAHAHAHAHAHA :D

 btw, I really hate the way he reacted when he saw that post.. -_-

Kasi namn kasi.

Why do I need  to do that namn ksi AGAD. Supposedly, I was going to tell him PERSONALLY..

as in FACE TO FACE. (yet I admit it.. really don't have enough guts to do to it:))) XD

BUT actually. I am ready to do it anytime... so,

I guess that the reason behind that CONFESSION 101 yesterday.

Darn it. -_-

NAKAKAHIYA SA BESTFRIEND KO.


O_O


This is it .

Alam na this.




Good night people!
XOXO

It;s mah freeday tomorrow. Better enjoy the rest of the day. I want to be a productive person tomorrow.
:)


This is Elle,

Signing out.

SCARED :{

Dear Blogger,

:(

Damn .Im crying a while a ago.. its because of him.

This is the first time that I did it for a friend.

I dont understand whats happening between us two. I just cant understand the way he's acting. Something's really odd. Something is not right. Something is happening here and I just cant explain it to myself.

I know things changes so fast in this world we are livin and so do people. This friendship started so fine and nothing simpler could ever define it. It was all okay.. I am happy being with him through out the seconds, minutes, and hours, and days that we've been together..
UNTIL

 I just cant explain how fast things has changed for the both of us. Suddenly, he started to act insane. It's like he's playing dumb with me. I cant understand what he means when he talks at me. On the way he tells me something about his life or even what he did the other day. On the way he speak to me when nobody's around. On the way he treat me.. It's like something is different.

I admit it. I do like him more than just  simple person I have ever known right now. But he is my bestfrend and I am his bestfriend. Well that's the case. I feel guilty if ever I do like him actually and nore than a bestfriend can do/ :/

I hate it!
This cant be happening to me. To us.

'coz I am scared/
I know he is scared too..

Scared,

that this might destroy everything we had at first. Scared at knowing him more than just an ordinary friend.

 I am scared because I'm scared of being rejected, being ignored, and getting hurt once again.

I am scared of trying all over again yet in the end... I will end up empty and broken.

I am scared to tell him the truth.

</3


This is Elle..
Signing out.


PS. REALITY IS NOTHING BUT AN ILLUSION.


#INCOMPLETE

Gettin' mad at someone who don't deserve it SUCKS!

Dear Blogger,

My day started fine. I woke up early ( but I think its almost past 7 am).  

My friend spent her night here at my apartment coz it already late at night to take a ride to their house. It;s kinda dangerous for her na to make uwi uwi pa sa kanila. 

Soo,,, back to the game. and speaking of what's goin on to me right now..

All I can say is , HE'S too dope to understand it. I couldn't even bare to tell him any of it. I don't have have the fuckin' guts!

What will I do??/?

He's my friend.. my bestfriend.

shit really happens. 

:/

This is Elle,

Signing off..

#SCARED

My heart skips a beat

Dear Blogger,

I don't know what's happening to me.

this can't be :/

uh oh..

I'm dead.


PS. Pleaseeee... No way


Signing off,

Elle

Dear Blogger, It's SUMMER! So?

Hey there you people :)

How's life goin' on? Well, it's been almost a month since I dropped by.

I just cant explain how stuffs are goin on around.

I mean, as far as I have remembered the last time, I was so messed up ! -_-

(with him) It was a total disaster.

Well, I just cant imagine how things turned out between the two us. ABSOLUTELY!
Pheww.. It all did happened. within a period of time.. It did happen. OHGESH. :3
still, until now.. I can't even imagine that it happened. :/ ;)

but let's face it, I do miss him right now..
I miss my bestfriend :3
(Weh, di nga Elle?!) XD
Pero , actually.. OO nga.. :3 HAHAHAHA

Well, btw, I'm attending my summer classes for this year in college :)

Takin' up Hum101 & Trigo.  :)))
 Probably, it' will be finished right before the last week of MAY.

and speaking of MAY:)
It's May first! Happy happy labor day to ya' all ! :*
(of course WALANG PASOK TODAY kaya RELAX RELAX DIN PAG ME TIME HERE SA APARTMENT) :)

Have a nice day ahead. Goodluck everyone in all your endeavors!
Just don't forget to THINK + :P

and ...
don't forget that there is only one GOD who always watches us and protects us. ^^


This is Elle.. signing off.
XoXo