Hi!
It's been a while... Well, life's been so complicated these days. I had to deal with such burdens and unexpected problems at school and at home >,< AND EVEN IN MYSELF.
My life was in such ruins these past weeks. I became so helpless and stressed -out! (and i feel like i wanna end my life) xD
A series of peculiar events has occurred to me.. and if I am going to say it all.. Probably, problems at school would be first on the list . Honestly.
I had a hard time dealing with such endeavors in my studies these consecutive weeks. I failed at tests, I cannot cope with others, and the worst is, I had the feeling that "I DON'T WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL ANYMORE" I dunno.It's just the thought that has aroused within myself that time. maybe it;s just because my other problems been burdening me so hard lately.
Another crisis that has really made me feel so hopeless is my problem regarding our family. i've been acting so much like a "Rebel -like" gal at home. I feel so angered at them because they seem to have many issues to make me feel that I'm so bad!- _- My relationship with my parents became unreachable and so much misunderstood. That time, there's only one thing that is set on my mind and that is to RUNAWAY._. I dont know what am I going to do during that time. I feel so ashamed at myself, I feel stupid, I feel rude, i feel dumb,I feel like I'm an outcast in this world. I feel so alone. :(
Well, I guess the saying, "There is always a sunshine after the heavy rain" is true after all. Right know,I am still reminded of how I tried to make my life in the right track even though there are still times that reminds me of how weak I have become.
As I walk towards the journey of life, I have realized something.
We are the ones who can make the life that we always wanted to be. Not by others, not by him nor by her. We are the only ones who will make a difference in this world.
Theses are the words that i have constructed upon my foolishness that has driven me to be in the wrong track of life but because of that, it has only proved that I can make a huge difference in my plain boring and frustrating life. I have been transformed into a NEWER ME, A BETTER ME :)
And i am very thankful to those who helped me get through this miserable life that i used to live especially to my family.. I owe them a lot.
Maybe time will still changed the way I am today..but who knows? maybe it is a total evolution of myself that would lead me to the fulfillment of my dreams and SUCCESS .
BTW, PROM ? Anyone? Proms' really fast approaching, and i have already made a decision...
I WILL BE THERE TOMORROW ! :)
p.s better wear the best dress i have <3
